The game

Wow, Its been a hot minute since i updated my followers on my lovely life. I'm going to change things up a little bit. Ive officially quit the dating game, to many little boys wanting the wrong things from me. So on that note unless I get a big hit on fail or just a crazy story I wont have much to tell about whats going on in the game. I think the final count for idiots was 10- 0 and at that rate I was heading down a very bitter mean path. Most of you know that I'm mean already we dont need to add to it. Anyhow so Life has curves, bumps and one day I will have a guy who follows me because he likes my sweet dance moves in my car, or can finish my song thats stuck in my head. Until that day happens I'm gonna do me keep my eyes open, talk to my computer about how much I hate it. Dream Big and land exactly where I want. I had to give up drinking for a hot minute to I was feeling a little out of control, and I'm all about control, and i was losing it. The one person who could make me feel better isnt answering my phone calls, so when he feels like being my best friend again I'll be waiting.....

This stuff really happens to me...

I was out Friday night having a great time, I ended up at a club, I was having a great time till my so called friend who had told me earlier in the night he couldn’t hang out with me because his roommate didn’t want me to meet his girlfriend. So anyway I was sitting at the bar and he texted me asking if I would come over, it was 1:38 am what does a guy who is my "friend" want at one thirty in the morning. I may have been born at night but not certainly Friday night. I tell him nope and make a comment about him acting like his roommate who we will refer to as the player with the big game... i.e. the guy who didn’t want me to meet his new girlfriend. He flips out calls me like twice than tells me I need to answer my phone. I go to the bathroom to answer the phone which is stupid because I knew he was going to yell at me. So I'm in the bathroom and he’s screaming at me calling every bad name in the book, I'm just like the player with game, all I wanted from him was sex, blah clearly someone has feelings for me and I've hurt them. Keep in mind he told me that this was a no feelings friendship he didn’t have time to create anything more than a friendship. So I hang up on him because no one I mean no one yells at me unless your my mother or father I don’t get yelled at by you. I put my phone in my pocket and get ready to leave the bathroom when I'm approached by a cute girl she asks me if I like girls, I state no. She pushes me up against the wall while grabbing the back of my head and proceeded to tell me she was going to make me. Her tongue was completely down my throat when I shoved her off of me and ran out of the bar.

So thats how my weekend started

Games

The name of the game is love,

I hate well hate is such a strong word how about I’m displeased with love. I really can’t say I’ve ever truly found it but I look for it all the time. I follow it around like a puppy dog follows food. I thought one time I had found it but leaving was far too easy to say I actually was truly head over heels in love with this person. I know I’m young, I have no children, and I can come and go as I please. I value my freedom, it’s nice to be able to pack everything and move a million miles away from my original zip code and start a new life for myself. I just wish I had someone who was willing to run away with me. I'm displeased with love because it never seems to find me.

Lust and I have a beautiful relationship or better yet my rear-end  has a wonderful relationship with lust, every guy I’ve ever met has been more in lust with my backside than me. I don’t understand why, it’s really not that great in my eyes it’s a butt, a gluteus maximus.

I hate Valentine’s Day it’s a huge waste of money, if the only day of the year you buy your girlfriend flowers or candy is Valentine’s Day you’re a freaking idiot, women want to be swept off their feet with little jesters like that all the time not on a hallmark holiday.

Some of my favorite quotes

I promise I will always be honest with you.

I dated this girl for a month, and she was horriable in bed, like cant fix horriable

It wont change anything if we had sex.

I feel like things are moving way to fast

You’re the most awesome girl I’ve ever met... but friendship is what I have to offer

I don’t want to hurt you

I'm seeing allot of different people right now

I recently got out rehab, so I’m having a down day...

I think I lost my job today

I think this is going beyond friendship

I just want to cuddle with you

I'm new here your new here we can hang out be friends

Honesty

Is it so hard to ask for honesty.....

If you’re honest with people no one gets hurt, the people who do get hurt are the ones who can’t handle the truth. Honesty is one of the things I will not give up on.

The Story Of the Evening

So I started seeing this guy, He told me he was 19 I was thinking okay that's a little young but whatever at least I know I will have fun. I mean think about it at 19 all guys are fun, free spirits who just enjoy doing just about everything. I like a moron fell and when I say fell I couldn't believe how open I was with him and he kept eating it up asking for seconds. A couple weeks into it I jokingly stated if he thought I was funny he should meet my mom (I'm a mini her) He replied without hesitation I would be honored to meet her. So I of course being a dumb girl was like okay why don't you come over for dinner sometime. He agreed than backed out four maybe five times on the deal I didn't think too much about it I mean people get busy, or at least that's what I kept telling myself. He finally met her, my mom’s response to meeting him was wow he just seems very young. (Should have been a red flag) So anyway we continue seeing each other but by this time it had been a week, and I asked him what plans he had on Thursday night he stated he needed to help someone move.(should of been another red flag) Who really moves on a Thursday night I mean come on people no one does. So a week goes past and its Thursday again he tells me he has to move someone again (another red flag) I inquire more about this moving thing he’s been doing allot of, he tells me some story about having to help his cousin get pick something up. At this point I'm thinking drug dealer its Thursday who doesn't go get there drugs on a Thursday it makes sense to me I mean Friday is like pregame for the weekend. I would buy drugs on a Thursday if that was my thing.... So anyway that Saturday we go to the club I assume he had a fake ID because he was in the club with me. We had a ton of fun... Sunday rolls around and keep in mind this club is also my go to place It’s my favorite place to have a drink and eat some wings... I went and spent a great day out in the sun, eating Italian food with my friends, we end up at my bar I'm sitting there talking with my bartender when she tells me she saw me with this guy, I inform her yeah we are seeing each other to which she informs me not only is he young but he is in FREAKING HIGH SCHOOL!!!!! I'm pretty sure I'm going to hell... not like it wasn't going to happen eventually but really damned to hell at 26. I always kind of figured it would be around 30 maybe my 50's but 26 come on... I do NOT look good in orange; I immediately end it, as he is begging me to stay... So Thursday nights are when he has his wrestling meets, all those high school people he was hanging out with are actually his friends, worst part, I got hurt because some dumb ass high schooler has game.... I'm sure he is a very popular guy if he wasn't already....

So Honesty, even in this situation it wouldn’t have paid off for him to be honest with me, but in the scheme of things just being honest is the only way to go... If you want a fuck buddy, tell the person your hanging out with, don’t lie to their face and say you want to build a lasting relationship, tell them you want to put another notch in your bed post that’s fine but that also gives them a chance to decide if that is something their willing to do... Not something that they end up thinking is going to be more than it actually is.

Guys like this are a dime a dozen one day maybe I'll meet someone who doesn't think the heart is a football. Life’s a game I get it, you have to play hard give it your all, get up when you get side swiped by reality. Its those little moments when your crying in your car because you just got kicked in the stomach by life that you have a chance to reflect and think about all the things that youve learned from this lesson and get a chance to apply it to the next wonderful person you meet. Mental note check the ID... lol

On that note thanks for reading :)

Angie 0 Idiots 1

The Start

First I would like to say welcome, I have allot of different random things running around my head so why not let everyone enjoy how actually crazy I am or better yet how crazy, people are making me. By people I mean MEN or BOYS ( I'll tell you all about that in a different blog) and the random people I seem to run into where ever I go. I'll start with an introduction to start, I'm 26 single with no real prospects of completing my five year plan IE marriage children house white picket fence and all. You know the American dream that no one believes in anymore. I would say I'm not bitter but I'm so bitter vinegar wont even come around me. Wait a second before you go there let me just say that I have made allot of mistakes some i regret and some I don't look twice at. I have loved, been loved thought I was happy but in the end if everything went right you guys wouldn't have the privilege of reading about my crazy messed up twisted life. Its not a bad one I must say Ive had some ups and some downs Ive moved all over the country, I must say I have never lived in my car for more than 24hrs Thank You to my friends for always being there when I needed you most. So on that note I will say welcome and I look forward to entertaining you guys.

P.s I'm not that bitter just opinionated